-August 24, 2017-
Mom. A word that awakens so many different emotions within me at once-joy, pain, sorrow, affection, compassion, gratitude, etc.
When I was young, my mom was everything in the world to me. She was my defender, more powerful than any other heroine I knew. She was my role model, greater than any famous people I knew. She was my friend, more trustworthy than any other buddy that I had. She was my teacher who guided me to live a righteous and wise life. She was my doctor who knew how to make me feel better in every single circumstance, whether I was hurt physically or emotionally. She really was my everything.
Then came high school and college. Slowly, my mom became less involved with my life. Actually, let me correct that. I let my mom get less involved with my life. Thinking about it, my mom was always constant. She never shifted or drifted apart from me. She was always there, ready to accept me and bring me back into her arms in case I fell and needed a place to take a rest to get back up.
I was the one detaching myself from my mom. Growing older, too many things in the world seemed more important to me than my mom-my friends, colleagues, finals, term papers, projects, club activities, part-time job, vacations, etc. I didn’t have time for her. Actually, let me correct myself again. I didn’t want to make time for her because she no longer was on the list of my priorities in life anymore. And I thought, “Whatever, I can see her whenever I feel like seeing her.”
Up until sophomore year of college, I didn’t understand it when people compared life to a rollercoaster because for me, life just kept skyrocketing, never thinking of going down. I had the top grades, was involved in so many different activities, and had friends who kept my life so busy by staying out with me past midnight every weekend. Then, just when I thought life seriously couldn’t get any better, I hit rock bottom. My life just decided to get on a submarine all of a sudden while riding on a jet. I lost the grades, I lost the scholarship, I lost some of my friends, I lost motivation, and I lost hope. I was devastated and helpless.
But in the midst of all those losses, only one thing continued to stay by my side and that was my mom’s love for me.
What I find amazing about a mom’s love for her child is that it is unconditional. A child does not have to do anything to gain her acceptance, care, support, or love. Just the plain fact that (s)he was born to her makes the child worthy of all the love and the adoration that (s)he receives.
During my darkest moments, when I could not find a ray of hope anywhere, all I could think of was my mom. I just wanted to run into her arms and be under her shield, guarded from all the pains and agonies. Even when I left her for so long to enjoy my own life and took her love for granted, she received me with the warmest greeting each time I went back to her in need.
She didn’t criticize me once for being unable to maintain top grades in my classes and even supported me to take a year off school to take the time to travel, discover my true passions, and regain my confidence. She would wake up in the middle of the night just to walk around the neighborhood with me on nights when I couldn’t fall asleep and told her that I wanted to get some fresh air. She prayed for me for hours every day in tears. One time, I woke up early morning to get a drink of water in the kitchen and found my mom weeping in the corner of our livingroom. I never witnessed such a fragile side of my mom like that before. Those tears of my mom were the stimuli for me to push myself forward again.
Because of her love, I am able to be here at this very moment, writing this blog post with genuine happiness and gratitude. I mean, it is because of my mom that I was able to have life and live. All the time that I have would not have been given to me in the first place if she did not endure the excruciating labor pain to have me 🤷🏻♀️.
So do not take your moms for granted! And for those who usually don’t express their emotions so well, maybe reading this post will encourage you to send a surprise “I love you” message to your mom? 😙 Better late than never! ❤️
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